Right as I was ready to get serious about an elimination diet on the packaged GF foods and corn, beans/legumes and nuts, my in-laws decide to plan a beach trip with us.
Which is, don’t get me wrong, very, very sweet. We had a great time.
But I was determined not to use it as an excuse to keep eating things I suspect affect Ada, and some of which I know affect me.
For instance, a certain brand of gluten free bread that I love tests to 12ppm of gluten. When we get it, I can’t keep my hands off of it (a sign its got gluten) and I have ringing ears and am slightly irritable the next day.
So, instead of taking that and some jelly and earth balance… my breakfast staple before I realized all these trace glutens were adding up, I took a bag of sweet potatoes.
I made sure the room had a kitchenette so we weren’t eating out all the time. I took our own pan, glass pan for baking and spatula. I was not going to let a trip deter me! Also… having Ada NOT reacting to a food is important for us being able to drive back without many tears. And we did! We made it the entire way without stopping!
That was also due in part to us upgrading her to a convertible seat, still rear-facing of course, from the infant seat. She seems so much happier now even on short trips, and can sit up more and play with Azita.
When we left Saturday she was VERY rashy and reacting to a food, but we made it. By the time we got back she was barely reacting and napping well, so I feel pretty good about my ability to keep us clean while traveling. Had we eaten out every meal, I doubt this would have happened.
We did go to a local health food store and Payman got some GF bread for him and Azita, but I didn’t have any of it. I did cave on the GF rice tortilla chips though. Those are awesomely awesome.
I don’t get to enjoy the beach quite the way I could before I had no kids, or even one kid, but I’m totally okay with that. I didn’t swim in the ocean, but walks along the beach with the baby in the sling do it for me. I just find the waves and breeze ridiculously relaxing.
One morning, I turned to Payman, as I was stuck in bed so Ada didn’t wake up, and said,”When they are 5 and 7 I am going to the beach in the morning by myself and swimming and doing yoga and you are keeping the kids and not complaining.”
Of course, he smiled and said he wouldn’t complain.
Our last night there, Azita had passed out in exhaustion from going to the pool with Payman, and I took Ada and just walked the beach with her. I sang her this quote to help her relax for bed time… it seemed fitting:
O wayfarer in the path of God! Take thou thy portion of the ocean of His grace, and deprive not thyself of the things that lie hidden in its depths. Be thou of them that have partaken of its treasures. A dewdrop out of this ocean would, if shed upon all that are in the heavens and on the earth, suffice to enrich them with the bounty of God, the Almighty, the All-Knowing, the All-Wise.
I take this quote to heart in our parenting… I think we are just trying to take our portion and share it with our kids to make the world a happier place. We don’t all know exactly what our portion is all the time, but I think some days its patience I’m being given to handle the kids when things don’t go my way. Other times it’s gratefulness that we get to live where we do with heat and A/C and more than enough food. Some days it creativity to make music and art.
The ability to choose to be happy about what I have in life, eventhough its not all perfect, is part of the ocean of grace that I think I’ve been given.